Lost

I know this is not the conventional way to do this and, yes, I realize it’s a private matter, but by already talking about the baby here, I’ve turned it into a public one. I feel compelled to fill you in on recent events plus I’m using this forum to do our dirty work. It will give us some breathing room and keep us from having to retell the same thing. This past week, we lost the baby. I won’t go into more details about what happened. I will say this. Yes, we will try again. We are still planning to name our first-born Blu and it was a girl.

I’ve lost a lot of friends over the years and every time it’s a little easier, but this was very different. It’s like losing a part of my wife and part of me. People keep saying, “Everything happens for a reason.” That might be true, but it hurts now. I want to be strong for my wife, but putting up a front is difficult. I do understand things will get better, so you can spare me the pep talks.

Every time someone asks me about the baby, I almost break down. It’s harder for my wife. So if you want to comment here feel free. We may or may not read it.

-Ethan